Yesterday, I had to go to the third doctor in two weeks. You'd think that after so many different doctor's visits I've lived through, a new doctor would be a piece of cake. You'd think I could get through that process without crying even a little bit on my way to the doctor. Shrug. It's scary. And I don't like going downtown on my own. Anyway, yesterday, I was forced to go by myself to an unfamiliar place full of unfamiliar faces, and I just broke down. I said, out loud, "God you have to bless me today, because I'm not going to make it through today without you."
And he did. The nurses were the kindest and friendliest nurses I've ever encountered, the doctor was also the kindest and friendliest, easy to understand (seriously, so important to me), and very gentle. I really appreciated him. And he finally helped me understand why I keep dealing with some of the symptoms I've been dealing with for three years, now.
It was honestly a little frustrating.. it's like, I've been to how many different doctors and told them all the same information, and you're telling me it's the Crohn's disease (and not the other, scarier, impossible-with-my-lifestyle cause?)? Three years. Man.
Anyway, I'm going to see ANOTHER doctor on Friday. But this time there's a bit of hope in understanding. There's hope that since the cause is something that actually makes sense in my life, it's something that can actually get taken care of in my life.
Sorry this is so vague. I'd give you the details, except they're terribly personal and inappropriate to have just lying around on the internet, ha. I just wanted to share how God blessed me when I came to the end of myself and asked him to take care of me. I'm learning all sorts of new things about myself and the way that God loves on me these days.
Also, an aside: we worked out program details yesterday and they are a w e s o m e. seriously, I love 'em. I can't wait to see what they'll look like on the right paper and all assembled and such. <3
Now, off to work. Eesh.
No comments:
Post a Comment